I use to think I knew what it meant to trust God, I really thought I did. I always prayed when things started looking a little dimmer. I prayed even during the good times, thanking Him for His provision in my life. I even thought when Steven was almost hit by a car that my trust was placed in the right place and still do.
It wasn’t until recently I realized my trusting in the Lord was only a fraction of what I thought it was. It has dawned on me that I really haven’t had to “trust in the Lord” as much as I thought. As I look back in the last three years, the only thing that I myself couldn’t provide was my protection and the protection of my children…and that is a whole other blog post.
I am amazed as I look back and think of my lifestyle while owning a restaurant and I have come to the conclusion that my restaurant hindered my faith when it came to trusting in the Lord. I wanted for nothing owning that kind of business. Everything was provided for my family, except one thing…the abundant life I live now. Huh, Cis? I don’t get that, I thought you just said you wanted for nothing…sounds kinda abundant to me!
It was abundant in worldly standards, but I was as poor as one could be on the inside! When the Lord asked us to sell our restaurant I didn’t really understand a lot of what He was asking us other than being called into full-time ministry and even that I didn’t know where, how, or when. All I knew is that He had called us and I knew better not to obey that call. Some may say that was trust, but I just call that obedience…I guess they both go hand in hand, really. I knew enough about my walk with the Lord and the Bible to obey what He calls us to do…just look at the book of Jonah 🙂
The kind of trust I am talking about is the everyday, provision of my physical, emotional, and spiritual needs…not just when all other things have failed. For example, having the cash flow of a restaurant I really didn’t have to trust in the Lord for my bills, but just the thankfulness of His provision. Now, He is revealing to me how He desires me to trust Him for every single dime. Some may think that is easy, but it is one thing to just say you trust in the Lord for your finances for a family of 6 living on one income and another to complete believe what you say in your heart that you have an abundant joy and peace because of that trust! Another example is having physical ailments and heading to the medicine cabinet instead of going to the “Great Physician” first, then the medicine cabinet. With all these things He desires us to seek and trust Him first and foremost!
I want to challenge you to start heading to the One who desires to meet your needs and yearns for you to trust Him with anything because He is your everything! 1 Corinthians 1:25 says “For the foolishness of God is wiser than man’s wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man’s strength.” Once we realize that we will never turn to anything else for our needs 🙂
Don’t take my word for it take His Word:
2 Corinthians 3:4-5 “And such trust have we through Christ to God-ward: 5Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think any thing as of ourselves; but our sufficiency is of God.
Psalm 18:2 “The LORD is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower.”
Proverbs 30:5 “Every word of God is pure: he is a shield unto them that put their trust in him.”